it took me a rather long time to realize that i miss tennis alot alot alot! i cannot tahan. I REALLY NEED TO PLAYYY TENNIS. oh boy. since the day keefee told us cca suspension would begin, i knew my life would enter a different light. a very dark and gloomy light. the courts have been pretty deserted and its been quite sometime since i held my racket. BAD LIFE. BUT nothing beats my mother! she CANCELLED and SELF-SUSPEND me from playing tennis at the club. BOMB BOMB BOMB to the MAXX larr. hais. thanks ah mum. CANT wait to get over with promos. training will resume and ill be the happiest kid.THOUGH training's gonna take like 75% of my time, im definitely MORE than willing to do it.
i KNOW i owe a list of people whom i should have played a game with since god knows when. warren, joel, gamar, xavier, joanne and wanqi, i PROMISE you guys tennis game after promos yea?? PROMISE PROMISE. im really sorry i dragged it. i was so tight with school work as well as trainings. so PLEASE forgive me.

anyway, school was pretty good today. SLACKED all day. HAWHAW. the only freaking annoying lesson today was math lar. OH what the hell. I SHOULD be loving math and not hating it. skipped mt lesson with nurul for about half an hour. told cikgu we wanted to go to the toilet, which we went, and AFTER toileting...we fled to some open space which had a beautiful scenery to take some photos.(ill upload them in the next post)GOOD LIFE.
i say this everyday and shall say it again. loads to complete today. pw IR, math tuts, chem tuts and malay compo which is due on friday. PLUS PLUS i have a bio and econs case study test coming up. study study study! promos is in 24 days. guess i really HAVE to start to make full use of this 24 days. looks like it's back to the neerdy me again. :(


i was born,
to tell you i love you
and i am torn,
to do what i have to
to make you mine,
so stay with me tonight.

xoxo,
hazlyn

some things have happened within this weekend and they've been pretty disturbing. from happy moments to really sad and hurtful ones. guess life definitely has its ups and downs. Ive bitched enough in OUR blog. so im NOT going to do that here. im tired. tired of all these childish nonsense. i MEAN grow up. ure already 17 and im sure you have certainly some humanity to stop going around calling people names. i said this then and will say it again. IF JEALOUSY is what you have for me then i have only two words for you. TOO BAD. im sorry. but this is reality. ure not always going to get what others have. u lose something and others gain it. so stop being a bitch and get your facts right.

ENOUGH. well im going back to st marggie's this friday. WOOHOOTS!! and im real excited. miss my sec 5 friends. and all those who've been awesomestically nice to me during my stressful years in st marg's. I LOVEEE YOU GUYSS!!! friday's been planned to be a surprise for someone as well. so im pretty excited. cant wait to see her reaction when she FINDS out that we all remembered. HAWHAW. tom's going to be another busy day at school. PW's due tom and im only half way. HECK la. AND MATHSSS FILE! HAAAAALAAMAKK!the biggest problem of the century.due tom and i CANT find all my tutorials. sheesh. im soo facing my wrath tom. guess, ill try to find for them before i go to bed.

im following a new diet plan. hopefully this works. found out that after promos, my training's gonna increase to 4times a week. HELL fun. but HELL tiring too. what's worse, ill be fasting and having training at the same time. CRIES. oh wells, looks like i have to look on the brighter side. BEEFS. and so and so and so, tom is DAY 1 of my payback fast. very excited larrr! WHEES. :) zawiwimadd and nurul, u guys are fasting too rite??

econs case study test coming up on wed. thurs there's bio test. looks like ive got some studying to do this week. :)

Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try.

xoxo,
hazlyn:)

i have read what u had to say and all the words im left with is a true and sincere apology. i know i may not be the best person to give you the happiness that you've all along wanted. not now. maybe not in the future. but i will try my very best to do all that i can to change the fate in which we may share. i want to be that person to catch you when you fall, to climb the mountains with you and to pass my days with you. and because of that, i am more than willing to give up that dream to save what we share. like you said, having kids is a bonus and so i'll live by that. you know ive got the stength and will put every single bit of it to do what i can. cause i sure know that letting you go is not an easy task.

Darling, seeing you happy is all that i will ask for.but if i cant give you full happiness, im more than willing to let you go. dont you bother what would happen to us or either me. cause im pretty sure everything will turn out fine at the end of the day. i really want you to know that im not forcing you to share this opinion that i have, cause i know that having kids is what you've always dreamed of. and since i love you, i dont want to be that girl to shatter it all away. you being happy is what matters most. i know you're really upset with the decision in which we've actually come to. its not spoken, but darling, actions definitely speak louder than words. deep down inside, ure just turning that uncomfortable feeling away. whatever happens, happens dear. but i dont want you to come to regret in the future. REGRET is what i fear. not on my part, cause i told you im more than willing to give it up. its more of what you'll feel. that something special missing in your life.

i don't want to be your regret.

xoxo,
hazlyn:)

i hate the feeling which follows after doing a math test in which ure neither here nor there. i mean im pretty confident i CAN pass this paper, but because ive failed too many times, im really afraid sheer dissappointment is what i'll get. well, all im sure of is i have tried my best and im hoping for the very best.

Praba seperated us, and ZOMGG!! i was placed next to yong le during the test. HAHA. fun it may be but disgust is MORE of what im feeling. HAWHAW.(ah-le. if ure reading this, im sorry) BUT I REALLY DONT LIKE BITCH-FACE la. she's called bitch face for a REASON. haiyo. and im sure my phone is screwed enough, so please, DONT screw it further by asking me to take MORE pics of her. CONCLUSION: IM NOT taking any more pictures of her. BOO. and dont give me the funny funny ideas and fantasies ur having in ur mind darling. it just wont work for us girls. i MEAN of all PEOPLE, how could u choose that face for a life -sized poster in which will serve the purpose of supporting your wild imgination?! yong le darling, just one advice for you, REPENT! by the way, hurry to the docs and get ur erectile OVER functioning fixed REAL fast please! AND DO NOTTT ever try to show me what you have. hehs. im VERY sure i know what u have and what ure capable of. :)

ALRIGHT. this post is really getting towards the wrong direction, so ill digress. tan boon piang was surprisingly in a very good mood. so i had fun during chem. Tom's SPA and im really scared.been trying to memorise my skill D and i hope everything will pay off tom afternoon. wish me luck! another week's going to come to an end. and every thurs, BC is where ill be.PLUS im fairly excited for tom's lesson, so im really looking forward. but BEFORE that, im meeting him to get some studying done. :) double YAYNESS for tom!

xoxo,
hazlyn dora:)